December 2011
138 posts
In reply to the private blog.
I wasnt there enuf, at all. I know. I know I’m doubting you all these while. I agree to evrything you said. Totally.
But I’m sorry. Maybe I’m not good enuf.
It’s not wrong to express all of that. I agree to it. No hard feelings here.
I’m sorry.
Hallu :3
Been awake for the whole night, chatting, otp-ing, fb-ing and doing these documents mum made me do. Nope, not tired. Not in the mood to sleep. Too caught up with everything. My mind is tired. Too tired.
Been waiting for the sunrise too. I can’t seem to see the sun. I somehow miss looking at the sun, one of the greatest God’s creation. I miss looking at the nature,...
We Are All Puzzle Pieces
Hallu. :3
I realized that we are all playing an important role in this life. Evry single person is a puzzle piece. Connecting one another in the right position to see the whole beautiful picture.
That explains how we lead our life. That’s the reason why people come and go, why people change, why people get replaced. It’s because we are all puzzle pieces. We need the right...
Buat Seorang Insan.
Ringan betul kan kau sebut nama aku ? Macam senang gitu. Setiap saat hidup kau , kau sebut nama aku. Lepas dengan nama, kau ceritakan pula tentang diri aku. Kau ceritakan apa yang pernah terjadi, tingkah laku dan sebagainya. Kau menunggu ku.
Masa untuk berjumpa amat sukar. Namun kau tetap meluangkan masa untuk ku. Setiap kali aku bersedih, kaulah orang pertama yang akan memujukku. Setiap...
Sickarable.
I’m sick. Been coughing and sneezing the whole night. Bleargh ! Nvm.
I just done otp. Called Dee since I forgot to asked about his appointment and called Zaa & Ally at a different time to update them about some stuff. Whoa. I bet my bills would rise sky high. HAHAHHA! nvm.
So it’s already 12midnight. Shall go get ready and go out to Sengkang tonight. Maybe sleep in the car...
Wonders.
So at 430pm, things settled. I woke up from sleep, showered and left house. A simple hello leads to a conversation and eventually, an end.
Things has ended between Dee and I. No u-turn.
Shan’t elaborate on that. If luck is on our side, we’ll meet again someday. Gonna miss you. (:
Took our own ways after that, a last tight hug and I went off to meet Abang and his friend, Alfiq...
I don't wanna sleep.
knowing that later when I woke up, things are just gonna be different. (‘:
Sampai hati kau kan ?
Buat aku gini, bagi harapan lepas tu tinggalkan macam gitu. Kau cakap macam2 tapi akhirnya sume hanya kata-kata tanpa makna walaupun tu janji.
Kau tau saket tu ape ? Aku kadang da tak bole pikir. Thanks eh ? aku sayang kau sangat. (:
Hais. Aku penat ah. Penat sangat. (:
Bored like a G6
Haaallu ! :3
Currently at a hawker ctr somewhere around Bukit Gombak. Bored like a G6 since I’m alone.
Had my lunch, not oxygen. Can’t buy. ic not wimme. bitch. -.-
ah kbye.
Home.
Haallu ! :3
Just got home, drop dead tired. Sick and gonna go out later tonight and tomorrow. Oh yeah.
Currently listening to some random old songs, missing them all. Why does the lyrics bothers me so much ? I just can’t understand. Sorry.
Nehmind.
2012 approaching. I don’t wanna start my new year being emo and shits. Shall let it go. (: I’m fine.
Gonna go out this...
I never let go of my pasts.
It has always been like that. I’ve been bottling things up for too long. The fear, the angst, the hatred.. Evrything.
Could someone teach me how to let go ?
Gone Crazy
Sometimes I don’t know at which point I’ve gone wrong. I can’t tell exactly where or when at all. I don’t even know if I’m doing the right thing right now such as posting about my life here. I seriously don’t.
I need someone to be here with me. Maybe I need a psychiatrist. Maybe I’ve been keeping too much already that it’s about to burst.
...
Given Up
I’ve given up in trying to be patient and work things out. Wanna wreck so much, I won’t bother anymore.
Pape ah kay ? kbye.
I’m done trying. If you need me, I won’t be anywhere. I’m done trying to make people stay. I’m done. Seriously.
When a person wants to leave, nothing can make them stay.
I’m sorry. I don’t fight for people who are not worth my effort.
Sometimes, you just can’t get what you want. Sometimes, you need to give in and accept the fact that you are just not good enuf.
It’s tiring to keep a positive mind. Very tiring. But for their sake, I’m willing to hold on a lil’bit longer. I’m sure God has something better for me in store. I’m just gonna keep believing in that. (‘:
A widest smile and biggest laughter hides the...
“Jangan sekali kali kamu mengatakan tidak mencintainya lagi, jika kamu ternyata...”
– Youtube
Apologising means nothing.
Sigh. Ald on my way to NUH now. Otak serabut yaw. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA !
kbye.
Fuck. Why do I feel so pissed ? =.= I’m so annoyed ! Wtf. =.=
Headache. I think maybe cause I didn’t sleep ? Well, I can’t. Not even tonight. Gonna follow Dad to Seng Kang again and gonna go get ready later. Sigh.
I'm Cranky Today.
If you’re not gonna reply me or you’re gonna give me one word answer, better don’t start a conversation. I fuckingly don’t appreciate it.
kbye.
Feeling Better.
Hallu :3
So I just did something to ease the itch ald (: I soaked my feet in hot water of sea salt for about a few minutes and then rinse it off. Oh yes, the feeling was crazy. Cooling, itch, pain, hot and anything related to it which is too much to list down. HAHAHA ! I thot of doing scrub but I’m lazy so soaking would be fine (:
Anyway, the Kendarat Team came over to my house just...
Getting Better.
Hallu :3
So I guess I’m getting better now. The redness and itch already ease down and I don’t scratch like crazy, except last night.
I did check up on some sickness and I came across Tinea Manus, ringworm on hand. There’s no worms actually, just a fungal infection and this time, aloe vera might not work cause I’m guessing dirt is inside the pores of the skin.
So...
sick
So I suspect that I’m down with HFMD, hand foot and mouth disease and ive already infected Abang and Dayat.
Well yeah. Dint go to the doc yet and I really hope I’m better soon. Seriously, of all days, why this week ? Why not next week so I don’t have to go to idk whose wedding which mum will definitely make me wear dress and whatsoever shit. Why ? Why not next...
Whaaaat thee fuuuck ?! Got to know weekends got a great place to go, Pasir Ris and Marsiling, and suddenly I’m sick. T.T”
OMG, I can really cry right now. Why ?! I can’t be sick at this time. Please people, pray for me that I’ll get well soon. I need to go out already. I just planned to proceed on the December plans already. D”:
Fuck. This feel worst than...
Hallu.
So I got back home at 9 pm just now after going out at about 8.30pm. I brought Dayat along with me. We talked about lil’stuff, and I told him how I wanted to buy a photo album for us, Dee & I, and how much I wanted to seal all of the memories into pictures, something which can be seen and touch.
A negative thot then strike me. I wonder what would happen next. What if one...
Anime Marathon Day #3
Hallu ! :3
So yes. I’m still watching Beelzebub on episode 27. Most prolly gonna finish it by today and then watch another anime. :) Oh yeaaah ! :D
I seriously don’t feel like eating today. I was damn suffocated last night, breathless and I don’t know why. Mum thot my asthma came back after such a long time cause I ate watermelon and drank coke and bro thot cause I...
Hallu :3
So I baked today with mum. Hehehe ! Made choc chip cookies and mum made this Puteri Salad ? :/
Currently I’m coughing and having runny nose and a hard time breathing lately. Goin out soon to Sengkang later on too. Idk if I’d be fine too. :/
Haiya. Rough night today. it’s okay.
#nowplaying Sedetik Lebih , dedicating this to my Baby Dee :3
Confuse
Hallu. :3
So I’m awake since 930am just now. Been gazing at the ceiling and thinking about what mum had said recently. So I got to know I got another cousin, a girl about my brother’s age. She have a sister and I’m not sure of her age. So they’re my cousins, whom I’ve never heard and met before.
The story is complicated. My uncle told me about her. Yes, was so damn...
Words Can't Explain.
Words can’t explain just how much I miss the moments we ever had. Nothing could explain how much I regret every moment wasted on the arguments we had every night.
Chey ! HAHAHAHA ! Stop it sia. :P
So currently listening to a wrong choice of song: Andai Dapat Ku Undurkan Masa by AXL’S. Been emo shit since this evening. Wtf, I know right. But don’t worry, things are...
Freak I Am.
Hallu . :3
So I’m gonna be a freak now. HAHAHAH ! No, not the psycho kinda freak but more like an anime-watching day thingy, or however you put it.
Been awake since 9am and watched anime since this morning all the way till now. Currently watching Beelzebub and now on episode 13, there’s 45 eps and I’m watching them all ! :D Next gonna be Nodame Cantabile . :3 Gonna...